********* (I Love You) Bonus Story: Rainfall MemoriesFollow

AUTHOR’S NOTE: This is something I hand-wrote last night while at work, and typed up today. It is a bonus story, and hopefully provides some sort of inside into Elayne’s mind, and how she feel about Dimitri. It takes place the during night that she tried to seduce Dimitri, right after he forced her out of his room.

I don’t know if I am going to link it up to the rest of my story...though I might.

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Bonus Story: Rainfall Memories
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Clickety-clack Clickety-clack

The rain pours down onto the top of the metal roof, clinking down into its intricate grooves and cracks, until it finally slips down to the ground, only to be washed away in some gutter and back to the sea just outside Bastok. I stood at the windowsill, watching the streetlights illuminate the streaks of water as they fell, splitting them into rainbows against the darkness. The moon faded away with the stars, leaving nothing to light the way through the night except for that lamppost, and even that isn't much.

I hate the rain.

I hate the goddessdamn, motherfu[/u]cking rain.

The rain always reminds me of misery, and the sadness that lies within it.

The rain also makes me reflective about my past, and forces me to wonder about where in the hell I am going tomorrow...

I can still see him pushing me away from him and onto the floor that night when we met again. The scene plays over and over in my mind, faster and faster, like a projector gone crazy and running at lightspeed, threatening to break at any moment.

I don't want to think, I don't want to be. I just want to die. Goddess, I wish I someone would strike me with lightening, freezing up my heart midbeat and ending my suffering.

My feet find their way to the bathroom, without asking me to be led away.

Hissssss

The water issues out from the faucet as I turn the hot water nozzle, just letting the liquid warm up enough that it is about to slightly scald me. I scoop my hands underneath the stream, and when I have a good handful I splash it on my face.

The water instantly chills, and I tremble from the sudden cold.

My hands drop to my sides, and I feel rather than see the large tattoo of the phoenix that I had gotten tattooed on my skin a long time ago, even before Dimitri and I had broken up.

The firey bird of ressurection, an avatar to the one true Goddess, whose tears would said to heal any pain.

Except for a hurting heart.

Is this what love is? Sadness? I messed up big time...and I don't know if he will ever talk to me again.

Not that I deserve to hear from him again.

I look in the mirror, and see that I am crying, the crystal droplets dripping away from my face faster and faster and down into the drain where they swirl away into the nothingness. I lick my lips, and I find the faint taste of seawater floating on them, it becoming more and more bitter all the constant while.

I don't want to FEEL anymore. I want to go numb, just die and let it all fade away, close my heart and never let anyone in.

Even him.

Though I know I will never be able to close my heart to him.

No matter how hard I try...

I wish I could take tonight back.

Say things differently, do things differently...

I stumble aimlessly out of the bathroom and into my bedroom, flopping myself down among the sheets and pillows gathered there. They catch and embrace me, drying my tears on them instantly, even as they become reborn just as quickly.

"Dimitri...please...one more chance..."

Let me love you with all my heart.

And show you that I am really worth your notice...

Clickety-clack, Clickety-clack

I hate the rain...

-fin Bonus Story: Rainfall Memories

Edited, Tue Aug 9 06:27:45 2005 by Nightsintdreams

I had thought about if I should before I put Rainfall Memories on this site, but then I realized three things:

1. You have to be at least fourteen to register for this site, according to US Law (Child Online Protection Act).

2. I can't think of a single fourteen year old these days who hasn't heard harsher language.

3. If reading Aki XIV wasn't enough to deter a person from reading my story, then a little bit of language wouldn't be either...

O.O

I am currently printing this out... all 84 pages of it... I am planning to read it in bed instead of the book im currently reading, because it is just so awesome!

I love this series, and when you are finished you should contact SE and get them to make this a movie or publish it or SOMETHING, because this is just an amazing story.