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#1 Jun 23 2005 at 3:40 AM Rating: Decent
First thing I will state this is in no way a flame thread. I am not saying anyone is a bad person/player here, I am just telling something that happened to me tonight.

This is about the dynamis Dynangels did tonight. Before I begin, I want you to think of a time where it seems everyone is against you and no one looks at the facts and just ignores what you have to say. This is how I feel right now. I feel not only disrecpected and slapped in the face, but also very hurt at the events that took place tonight. Dynangels is an awsome dynamis ls and we are doing better and better everyday. But from my perspective (being a blm) we have some problems. Unfortunatly as much as I hate to point fingers, my main problem with the blm part of our team has been Hiptaru. I have never had any problems with Hip nor do I think he is a bad player. His attitude leave something to be desired, but thats no secret. He is the main blm /as in the dynamis and since the start has had his problems. When I try to talk to him about it, I get rude coments in return. I have tried very very hard to work these things out with him but to no avail. I was told by Hellriser when I confronted him about these problems they would be taken care of, and I was even told I would be the main /as for blms twice in a row now. But for some reason this was changed when I show up at dynamis each time. And it happened tonight as well and I felt as thought I was disrespected again. Then later in the night while in the dynamis people started to say things about Hip's performance. One person who did was my good friend Ash that was told very rudly to keep quite and then was removed from the dynamis for reasons I do not feel were right. But I also can not argue that the LS is hellrisers and he has the power to kick people as he sees fit. And then a little time later, after the one of the many times the blms did not have a target, instead of trying harder to get one, Hip for the 5th time camplained about the lag. It's dynamis, we all know it's going to be laggy. I told him "Instead of complaining about the lag, please find us blms a target". I get a threatening tell in return from Hip. Things carry on like usual with Hip complaining a few more times and not doing his job the best he can. But after the dynamis Hellriser asks for a meeting with all the blms. I state my problems to the group who give me the same answer... "He is learning, tell him the things you see wrong and help him fix them." All this time I am getting tells from Hip taunting me and mocking me saying "You are the weakest link" and "Goodbye". HE EVEN SENT A MISTELL INTO THE PARTY CHAT of one of his taunts. And then I am told that I am now banned for the next 2 events because of what I said to Hip about finding a target. But just 3 days ago Hip said durning an event in LS chat I might add.."stop lotting you greedy f*cks!" Am I missing something here? I spent a lot of hours studying and researching all week to help make the blm team better because I was under the impression I was the main blm /as and to not only be disrespected by not being the blm /as for this run, I am banned for stating how I felt and asking for Hip to do his job instead on complain. I am still in awe at what happened tonight. Our blm team is second to none, but we need someone who will not complain about lag and get the job done to make us even better. I love everyone in the ls, I even swollow my pride because Hip always disrespects me yet I still do my best. In our last bastok run he even told me in party chat that "I was on his sh*t list". Did anyone say anything to him? I have no clue how close Hellriser and Hip are because they chat on AIM, but that is just not called for. I am going to miss seeing everyone, and I thank everyone who stuck up for me in tells and in ls/party chat. I will not mention names because I do not wish to single anyone out. But thank you from the bottom of my heart. I don't often post and I hate to bring up negative things, but like I said I really needed to get this off my chest. I thank you also if your still reading. I swear on my life everything I have stated here is truth and altho I have been ripped apart tonight by the same people whom I considered very good friends. I do not hold a grudge against anyone. Even Hip considering he thinks he is so slick by sending me those rude tells. And yes I am not a saint, but I feel I am a good person. I wouldn't wish the feeling I have tonight on anyone else. It's just a game until you have someone you care for and trust stick a knife in your back and twist it. So I was told I was banned for 2 events and when I return I will be the main blm /as which I might add is the 3rd time I was told this. Would you return? This is a choice I have to make. I feel so guilty make such a big deal about this, but I have tried my hardest to work things out with Hip but his attitude is...well I am at a loss for words, but you can make your own up. I am very sorry to every one of the blms in Dynangels, I only tried my hardest to make it better for us all. With this looming over my head and a 2 event ban, how am I expected to return to everyone with the same joy and drive I had to help Hellriser achive his goal of being the the #1 NA dynamis LS on bismarck. I show of for the benefit of all the members, but am singled out and thrown away like a peice of trash. I don't know how I should feel. I'm sorry, I'll stop now. Thanks for taking your time to read what I had to say. I feel a bit better now and will try my best to find some light in this matter. {Good Night!}

Buddah
#2 Jun 23 2005 at 8:04 AM Rating: Good
My eyes...oh God my eyes... Smiley: eek

I got about 5-6 lines in and I lost my place. Any chance you could format that with some paragraphs?
#3 Jun 23 2005 at 8:14 AM Rating: Good
I forsee Buddah with the Darkside.


But more seriously, I think it time you found a new Dyanmis LS...




But, you know, I can for some reason picture you joining up with the abiguously gay trio soon...I don't wanna see that happen personally...
#4 Jun 23 2005 at 8:21 AM Rating: Decent
Contray to popular belief, I do not like any of the infamouse trio. I have started so in ore then one post, but no one bothers to read that part. But yes, I do feel a pull to the dark side, just not that part of it. lol It would be lying if I said I didn't consider joining their ls. It's a damn shame, but I feel that ls would very nice to me and all, but I still can't bring my self to do it. I am just equiping my old LS from now on TempleofFriends.

Edited, Thu Jun 23 09:34:23 2005 by BuddahTheGreat
#5 Jun 23 2005 at 9:23 AM Rating: Decent
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You need to reformat that somewhat to make it a bit easier to read.. I got as far as the second line and gave up :)
#6 Jun 23 2005 at 9:42 AM Rating: Decent
Buddah, I would just look around for an LS that does HNM/Dynamis whatever tickles your fancy. To be honest I looked around for a while when I hit 70, Narrowed it down to Final Legends and URB.

I chose URB because they have their own dyanmis and HNM. Final Legends I chose not too because I didn't care for one particular individual who I think is one of the biggest slack/jack - asses and overall just mentially handicapped (in XP pts anyway)...Zuvor, I woulda flammed him if I was in the LS for not participating and just being there for greed...for something he felt was worthwhile to him.

But now, 5 days into my URB trial guess who else is on trial.../sigh


Edited, Thu Jun 23 10:44:24 2005 by Qinnydar
#7 Jun 23 2005 at 10:01 AM Rating: Decent
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I wasn't going to post, but seeing as I am the only one that can read it.


You did something similar to me during our set, Buddah. But, I didn't whine, and I didn't waste your time making a post about it.


Karma's a ***** 'eh?!
#8 Jun 23 2005 at 10:03 AM Rating: Decent
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But now, 5 days into my URB trial guess who else is on trial.../sigh


URB is a good LS, they are koo ^^
#9 Jun 23 2005 at 10:43 AM Rating: Good
Well Buddah, I feel your pain as a blm in dynamis, as do many of the blm who have done dynamis. I think it is nice to note DynaAngels uses a blm /as instead of a nin though, that probably is a better system. You just have to choose your battles on Dynamis, if things aren't working out, say goodbye and drop the pearl. It's no use trying to argue with people on this game more than once, especially Hiptaru, he is going to play his way, best you can do is let him do it on his own. If they want to be stupid and throw away a 75 blm in dynamis then that's their deal. I wish I had a good dynamis pearl to recommend to you, but I don't, unless you can tag along with IRON, I've never went with them, but a good friend tells me they do quite well, not sure if they allow people to go with them anymore though.
As for joining the "dark side" lol, you'll find the game much more enjoyable just staying away from big LS drama for a while. Level up another job, meet new people, that crap. I dont think there is much incentive to join Domination, I dont believe they give away free gil, although being in a party with a guy named "Andydong" would be funny as hell.
And don't worry, more dynamis LS start up all the time, just wait a month and someone will be starting one, hell if I could come up with 40 people who could pay attention for 5 minutes and know how to use an /as macro I'd start one.



#10 Jun 23 2005 at 11:00 AM Rating: Decent
Zariko, that was my girlfriend, and the choice was made as a group. I never had a problem with you, but it seems you hold a grudge against me. {That's too bad.}

And to answer your questions Quinny, I was a member of URBII when it was first made as an orange ls. As for shopping around for another ls, I have been a member and seen the curption and the dark side of most HNMLS's. I was a member of aurora, URB, AD and many others. Even tho it's somewhat a good quality, I can not tolerate seeing bad things take place and go unoticed. As for FinalLegends, I have been a memeber (considering I have a pearl and have had one for a long long time) they do not do the things I want to do. I was really happy when Hellriser came along because that was something (Dynamis) I wanted to be a part of, but as you can see things didn't work out. My blunt honesty and good character do not mix well with most groups of people who are greedy and hungry for power. As for karma, which everyone seems so quick to point out, I have spent 90% of my last year playing FFXI helping others and making the game fun for others, but when I do something wrong and *GASP* make a mistake or even get very mad and tell someone like it is, it's bad karma. I found out that people really like to hold grudges and it's a shame. Even though many people have disrespected me, I always forgive, I just never forget. And if you think my posts on BBL (Yes it was me I might add) make me look bad, I was only venting steam and it felt good and helped me to forget about what was done to me. I does not make someone a bad person for speaking their mind, I have always stood by this fact. I have been done with FFXI for some time now because all I do is nothing but help others and have no time for myself to have fun. The only thing keeping me playing was this dynamis ls and I am afraid this is most likely the end of the line. I had my fun and meet some amazing people. But in the future I will take my FF games the same way they have always come. Solo...

P.S. I am a good friend of Zuvors and altho he seems strange at times, I feel as tho he is a good person. I'm sorry you feel that way about it.

EDIT: Sorry darth you beat me to the post. Thank you for your kind words, but I have been a part of this cycle for a long time. Don't get me worng, I know many many good people and I feel Bismarck is a very good server, we just do noting but talk about our problems. As for joining IRON, there are a few people in that ls that are not fond of me, for reasons I have no clue. Reguardless I am not one for **** kissing. The more and more I think of it, the more frustrated I get at how people get away with murder and how much of my life I have thrown away in this game. Hip MISTELLED one of his insults at me into the party chat for everyone to see, including Hellriser among others and I still got kicked and nothing was said to him. I have no clue what Hip must talk to Hellriser about or what he must say about how I am out to get him or what not, but that is just crazy. That still amazes me. Even people who hate me with a passion have to see that is just very wrong. ok I'm done now...

Edited, Thu Jun 23 12:09:53 2005 by BuddahTheGreat
#11 Jun 23 2005 at 11:44 AM Rating: Decent
Buddah, I agree with Darth,

I wouldn't quit the game which you enjoy. Just, take a breather and find a new Dynamis, maybe that Aiokane or something, I dunno...this sucks I'm hungry...going to lunch, lata.


#12 Jun 23 2005 at 12:54 PM Rating: Default
You thought you could take down our forums but you were wrong http://www.bismarckbitchlist.com/forum/viewtopic.php?t=6
#13 Jun 23 2005 at 1:24 PM Rating: Good
whitenoises wrote:
You thought you could take down our forums but you were wrong http://www.bismarckbitchlist.com/forum/viewtopic.php?t=6



I wondered why every thread you were in smelled like s[b][/b]hit, now I know why. Go away little boy, we don't want you here.

Edited, Thu Jun 23 14:25:01 2005 by Wintaru
#14 Jun 23 2005 at 1:49 PM Rating: Decent
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Not that I want to derail the topic too bad or anything, but I've never done Dynamis and I'm curious, what's an /as?
#15 Jun 23 2005 at 1:53 PM Rating: Good
Means /assist

you have a target (the MT) you /assist and you will automatically target what they have targeted...

Helps for people not breaking sleeps and concentrating firepower on one target.

#16 Jun 23 2005 at 4:01 PM Rating: Default
And just what is that suposed to mean Wintaru?
#17 Jun 23 2005 at 4:16 PM Rating: Good
If you are referring to my first post I was saying that I find it difficult to read a solid block of text so was wondering if you could put some paragraphs in there to help me out.

If you are referring to my second post I was saying that in every thread whitenoises posts in he trys to stir up contention and trouble, and his post in this thread linked to the Bismarck ********* website which would explain his behavior since he is affiliated with that group of retards.

Clear enough for you?
#18 Jun 25 2005 at 8:10 AM Rating: Decent
Yes win, that clears it up. I was refreing to your second post. I understood the firs one. And no I am not going to paragraph it.
#19 Jun 25 2005 at 11:34 PM Rating: Decent
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Something I need to get out


Could you try to get it out in a slightly more readable form?
#20 Jun 26 2005 at 4:47 AM Rating: Decent
hmmm. I dont understand the problem, i live in America for only 4 years and understand this no problem. Try to read into it more, next time.
#21 Jun 27 2005 at 2:43 AM Rating: Default
Again no I will not edit the post. Even I see I made some minor errors in the post, but I will not edit it because then someone will come is here and say I said something that wasn't in the original post. I mean everything I said in my post and I am sorry if you can not read it. In my defense, I was not in a very good state of mind when I posted it so my grammar and sentence structure are not very good. It seems though the people who were involved did read the post and are very mad at me. Maybe they see what I see now?
#22 Jun 30 2005 at 2:22 AM Rating: Decent
You know man, people will respect what you have to say more, if they actually know what you have to say. I browes forums a lot, and normally I will by pass posts like your original (unless the topic really interests me)

I can understand you were mad and it may effect judgement in stuff.. like structure., but what you have to say is probably important (to you at least) and its no good if people cant understand it.

anyways, if it makes you feel any better DA failed dynamis windy tonight.



#23 Jun 30 2005 at 3:54 AM Rating: Decent
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Again no I will not edit the post. Even I see I made some minor errors in the post, but I will not edit it because then someone will come is here and say I said something that wasn't in the original post.


I'm not talking about sentence structure and grammar. Just put a few paragraphs in there so I can keep my eyeballs from bleeding to death.
#24 Jun 30 2005 at 7:49 AM Rating: Decent
Hello Buddah,

I have a few questions for you. Im not quite sure I understand the purpose of your OP. What is it exactly that you are trying to get out? and to whom? (you can use small words if you like)

Perhaps you should just come out and say your pissed a Hiptaru because hes an A$$hole? It would have saved me a lot of reading. Of course Hip is an A$$hole, he always has been. But hes also a nice guy, and has always been that too. Ive seen him have the most viscious flame wars with people and then when they finally approach him about it they usually end up resolving the issue and more often than not the end up friends.

From what I can tell of your post you had ill feeling initially from not being allowed to take a lead role in an event? (you can correct me if im wrong) Were I you, (This goes for you too hippy) I would not try and resolve my pride issues during the course of an event. Think about this. You guys are having Dynamis and during this event you and Hip are going at it? No wonder the BLM squad didnt do so hot...all the BLM's were pissed at each other.

You guys should certainly find some time before the next event to talk to each other in private before the next Dynamis that you both attend. Otherwise it is unfair to EVERY player attending that event.

Now I dont know exactly what happened (other that the fact that you and Hip exchanged insults and that I suspect your pride was perhaps hurt a little)and it really doesnt matter to me all that much. I just think that perhaps like most other LS drama that you would have been better served to resolve it within the confines of that LS as opposed to bringing it here for all to see.

The fact that you did has me wondering what exactly your intentions are..a little revenge perhaps? Or did you actually hope to accomplish something positive by this display?

Thanks,

Gob

(sorry for any grammer&spelling errors..im addicted to phonics..badly)

EDIT:(hah i lied i went back and corrected SOME of the errors!)

Edited, Thu Jun 30 11:19:08 2005 by goblobsters
#25 Jun 30 2005 at 8:07 AM Rating: Decent
goblobsters wrote:
No wonder the BLM squad didnt do so hot...all the BLM's were pissed at each other.


Heh,

None of us like each other! We have our ego's and pride, whoever deals out the most damage is the winnar!!!!!

The a BLM thing I think.
#26 Jul 01 2005 at 6:24 PM Rating: Decent
Ok first no I am not happy DA failed Windy. I do not wish misfortune on them or anyone.

Two, like I said before, yeah I have heard things about Hip being an a$$hole in forums here, and other places and even from other players in the game. I did not dislike him nor did I like him when we started the LS. I was at one time in his ls Hipnotiknation. His attitude does nothing more then to help me realize he was indeed an a$$hole and makes the things he did and said more believeable.

Three, yes I will admit there is an ego problem amongst all the blms I know, but do I think this is the case here? No. I'll try to explain this as clearly as possible..

I have done and won many dynamis's. About 50 or so now.
I see Hip not doing the best possible job and it is causing problems.
I say something to Hip about how we can work things out better.
I get rude coments back from him.
I confront Hellriser about it. (Hellriser is the DA ls leader)
He tells me he will take care of it......
3 months later....Nothing has changed
A friend of mine is rudly kicked from the event by Hellriser who went against his "3 strike" rule.
I say something to Hip about his constant complaining of the lag and ask him to find us(blms) a target.
I am banned for being rude to Hip.

No, I am not trying to cause drama, yes I was very mad and bent out of shape about the whole thing. I feel what happened was not right and posted it for a few reasons. One I wanted to see if maybe I was in the wrong and someone else had another optinion. Two I wanted to let everyone know about what happened because something like this should not be hidden. It's not drama, it's favoritism. Like I said above, I considered Hellriser a very good friend. Thus I was very hurt when he looked past the facts and threw me away like he did. I am since over this and have moved on, but I will not lets what happened just be ignored. And again I will also thank everyone who has been behind me on this. It means a lot to me knowing I'm not the only one who see this is very wrong.

Edited, Fri Jul 1 19:52:05 2005 by BuddahTheGreat
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